Our banya, which sits about 100 feet from the house. |
Americans use an average of 100 gallons of water a day. We use maybe 3 gallons apiece. We’re just not that thirsty---or that clean. (One of my sons has worn the same sweatshirt the entire summer. Just 1 washing. And I just went 6 days without washing my hair. I’m lucky like that . ..)
Our water does not gush from our 2 faucets in the house: it ambles, urged along simply by gravity-flow from a tank above our house filled with water from our hand-dug well. Getting clean and staying clean take time and energy. We don’t have an indoor shower or a tub; we bathe in a banya, a word and a custom brought over by the Russians 300 years ago when they colonized this part of Alaska.
fill the inside tank (over part of the barrel stove) with water for our hot water.
We keep the fire stoked until the water inside is hot and the air temperature is about 200 degrees. It takes 3 - 4 hours---we have to plan ahead. Then we take turns filing out to the banya, towels over our shoulders. We steam and sweat, washing in basins, emerging red-faced, happy and clean.
We use very little water, but we use a lot of wood, all of it driftwood found on beaches, dragged to shore in a flotilla, stacked until we saw it up and burn it.
I’ve been dragging my body into that banya for 35 years now. Naked I sit, in my grime and sweat and the worries of the day, sucking in air almost too hot for my lungs. But I’m not really here to get clean. I'm here to get pure.
The banya, like a native American sweatlodge, is often a house of prayer for me. Two thousand years ago, on a grassy hillside, maybe a bit like the one where we built our banya, a promise and a blessing was given: “Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God. “
Am I pure enough yet to see the living God?
In a book of prayers from the Presbyterian church published in 1940’s I find this prayer:
“Grant that we may think clean, generous, humble thoughts and harbor none that stains the mind or dims our vision of Thee. So cleanse our hearts that we may ever behold thee face to face . .”
What I have seen of God so far is this:
He strips us, he scalds us, he sears our lungs, he opens
our pores, we melt, our bodies weep . . .
And when we return again to the world,
we wear clean clothes, our skin shines,
people are kinder,
and the world itself is brighter than we left it.
How many of us are “pure in heart”?
Not me. But we shall be, one day. Even as we lean toward that day,
somehow
this day,
already,
we have been made
clean enough.
Your words, "he strips us...scalds us...sears our lungs...opens our pores...we melt...our bodies weep..." are so healing. Sometimes it seems like God is killing us in this process, but you reminded me there is an end result in "clean clothes and our skin shines". Thank you.
ReplyDeleteAnnie----yes, I know. It feels like too much at times, like there is death in it. And indeed there is---but yes, at the other end---we are pronounced CLEAN!! (So thankful!)
DeleteI love that prayer... a big yes and amen. I love how you all clean...but it is really a cleanse... you are cleaning from the inside out... that is a picture for sure... and a healthier way to live...both physically and spiritually as well!!!!
ReplyDeleteRo----what a great word: "Cleanse". Just that one more letter, s, helps me see the larger meaning. Thank you!! (And this cleanse doesn't require either starvation or too many vegetables!!)
DeleteThis is a great picture of what God does in us. And now I know all the work that goes into "getting a bath" in Alaska!
ReplyDeleteRaised in a Finnish sauna tradition, I love this. The Finnish sauna is considered sacred.
ReplyDeletePat---oh yes! I have heard of this! And no wonder. The Finns, like us, have those long dark winters. What else to do but sweat and get spiritual and clean??
DeleteLeslie, you have made the banya a sacrament with this meditation. Like Jesus did with the dailyness of bread and wine. How many other things are waiting to be made holy because we meet Jesus in them? Could even potty training be sacramental? I dare to hope...
ReplyDeleteBlessing.
Ohhh, I hope and believe with you that even potty training can be sacramental. Yes. It is too late for me to write about that----that is yours!! (Let me know when you write it!!) Or, maybe just living it will be enough??
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