The day after Christmas, I drove up a snowy mountain in a
little Subaru, my 13 year old son, Abraham, strapped in beside me. The road
wasn’t plowed. The snow was deep. Under the snow was sheer ice. I had little
control but expected no traffic since
the road was unplowed.
I had to drive fast to keep momentum, or the car would have
simply slid to a stop. I drove with hands gripping the wheel, all eyes just
feet in front of me. When the first vehicle appeared, a jeep,I almost panicked.
There was no room to pass! Who would move for whom? We played King of the Road,
both driving full tilt toward one another. I could neither slow down nor pull
over, or I’d be dead in the snow. I had to keep plowing forward, fishtailing as
I went, hoping, praying to keep at least an inch between our respective metal
carapaces.
We passed, missing one another by a breath, but I ended sideways on the road, my back tires spinning helplessly. I rocked and gunned, reversed and tried to rock forward for several minutes. It seemed hopeless, until a man appeared beside me, the driver of the jeep. With a giant push, he heaved me back onto the ice and I was off again.
We passed, missing one another by a breath, but I ended sideways on the road, my back tires spinning helplessly. I rocked and gunned, reversed and tried to rock forward for several minutes. It seemed hopeless, until a man appeared beside me, the driver of the jeep. With a giant push, he heaved me back onto the ice and I was off again.
When we hit the
beginning of the pass and the switchbacks, more challenges. I had to slow to
round the nearly 90 degree turns, but had to keep speed to scale the ascent.
Abraham and I both leaned forward in our seats, our bodies urging us onward.
Two more trucks and two more
King-of-the-Roads as we barely passed on the switchbacks----then a straightaway and a
final climb . . . . 15 minutes and---Wonder! We made it! There were about 10 other vehicles there in
the parking lot---all heavy duty trucks. Mine was the only small car there.
You all know about this kind of drive, whether you live in
Florida or Alaska.
Every year we sit at the bottom of last year’s mountain and get ready to climb another. There it is before us. 365 days. And our car is so small and the snow is so deep and the peak is so far. All we must do and be in each of those days is overwhelming.
Be faithful?
We are made of dirt and water!
Be joyful?
The wind never stops and there’s not enough money for the
mortgage this month.
Be productive?
We have no strength some days save to fall into bed.
Be loving?
Our neighbors and families get testier every year.
Be perfect?
We are made of dust and broken glass.
Be holy?
Our feet are muddied, our hands soiled.
Be like Jesus?
We can hardly be like ourselves some days.
Oh, how will we get up that mountain? We’re tired. We’ve
already climbed so many. And people
expect more from us.
And now, one more.
But, listen! We've not got it right.
We make too much of our smallness.
We love too much our weakness.
Our failures loom too large and Christ shrinks small.
We empower the past and steal light from the future.
We exalt our groveling and denigrate His glory.
We‘re in love with our brokenness and lose delight in His holiness.
All of this makes the mountain higher and steeper than it really is.
Yes, it’s true, how broken and sharded we are. But we forget
the best part of ourselves:
Christ in you, the hope of glory!!
Christ in you, the hope of glory!!
Ain't no mountain too high for us, dear friends.
Do you remember this, who you really are? Do you remember that the mystery hidden for ages and generations has been
revealed NOW, to His saints?! To YOU?!
Do you think you climb that mountain alone? (Christ in you, the hope of glory!)
Do you think it all depends on your hands on the wheel? (Christ in you, the hope of glory!)
Do you think if you get stuck on the way, you’re stuck there
forever? (Christ in you, the hope of glory!)
And what do you think is up there? Did I tell you why I drove that mountain
pass?
There were sleds in the back of my car. Another car full of
boys would join us. We went sledding. And hiking. And breathing. And talking.
It was another world up there on the mountain. In the too long dark of the winter, there was light and almost sun, and pieces of blue shone from the sky on the new snow. A ptarmigan startled from a bush. People were snowboarding. My sons’ laughter slid down the sledding hill behind him all the way to the bottom. We walked for hours in a white-bath wilderness. Later, the setting sun set the peaks on yellow fire.
It was another world up there on the mountain. In the too long dark of the winter, there was light and almost sun, and pieces of blue shone from the sky on the new snow. A ptarmigan startled from a bush. People were snowboarding. My sons’ laughter slid down the sledding hill behind him all the way to the bottom. We walked for hours in a white-bath wilderness. Later, the setting sun set the peaks on yellow fire.
I don’t know what’s ahead for us all in this next year. But Stop looking behind. Stop looking at the frailty of your hands, the dirt under your nails as you grip the wheel, how deep the snow, all the reasons you think you can’t make it.
Look to Him. Christ is IN you, the hope of glory, and next
year will be a grand, heart-pumping adventure. You will laugh, as Abraham and I
did sliding around the curves. Your eyes will be wide open. You’ll catch your
breath on the straightaways and then fly on the downhills … You can do so much more than you know
because---you know it---Christ is in
you, the hope of glory.
You cannot fail.
Start the New Year now.
Be fearless, happy and strong.
Christ is in you,
The hope of
glory.
(Seat belts required.)
I was so hoping this was not a trip to Wal-mart or Target. Halfway through you had me and I did wonder what was so important that other trucks would be there too. Wonderful way to spend the day! Hooray for time to spare, families, and transportation.
ReplyDeleteJanice!! Ohh, so glad I did not disappoint with a trip to WalMart!! No worries with that here. Yes, we're desperate for fun and entertainment. I'll go anywhere! But of course the trip itself is half the adventure! Wishing you a glorious New Year, Janice!!
DeleteWow...what a climb...but the payoff seemed worth it...how much fun...and I love that you would set out with your son in this way...joining you this year...being fearless,happy and strong ....Happy New year to you!!!!
ReplyDeleteRo! Yes indeed. It was so much fun! But I confess---the year looms large before me and fears set in (especially with the release of a new book in 2 weeks.) So--I did (and do0 need a way to climb the mountain ahead of us all! Happy New Year to YOU!!
DeleteYou are so wise. This is a needed pep-talk; it is fuel for this road, heading straight into the expanse of a new year.
ReplyDeleteThank you.
Thanks so much, Jennifer. SO maybe I am not the only one facing a mountain?? And I know---I give too much power to my weakness. Going to try and stop doing that!! Blessings to you, Jennifer, in all your wondrous work this new year!
DeleteI've closed my blog and been absent for a while Leslie, but I've visited and read
ReplyDeleteThis is just what my soul needed. In the midst of stress tests and heart monitors your words and joyful spirit lift me. HAppy New Year dear Leslie
Linda--I knew you had ended your blog. I hope that brings new peace to your soul! And so glad this spoke to you (as it did to me. I face many fears myself in this new year.) May you heart beat strong and happy this next year--with CHrist in you!!
DeleteThank you Leslie for this wonderful reminder that Christ is in us, in ME! I loved your lines:
ReplyDeleteWe make too much of our smallness.
We love too much our weakness.
Our failures loom too large and Christ shrinks small.
This has been me!! I've kept my eyes so much on my fears and weaknesses that I've made them, made me, bigger than my Jesus who is IN me. Thank you my sweet and wise sister in the Lord, for sharing what God shares with you to help me, encourage me...this new year? I want to learn to allow Jesus to be greater than my fears and weaknesses. Thank you SO much for sharing this! I loved it.....
Shelly, so glad this connected with you. I do, have done the same---so I knew I needed these words maybe more than anyone! SO thankful you are encouraged! Let's hold each other to this, okay?? Happy Christ-in-you New Year!!
DeleteI love this. So you sledded up on your way to sled down!
ReplyDeleteThanks for saying out loud that maybe we're in love with (I daresay sometimes idolize) our brokenness. Thanks for the reminder and repetition of Christ in us, our hope and glory. Three beautiful words. We don't know everything that's around the bend in 2014, do we? I'm ready to sled into it.
Ahhh, me too!! But you know, I wasn't ready until I wrote that post. I had to write through my own apprehensions for this upcoming year (one of which is the new book releasing so soon. Trying to give over all those fears . ...) and remember, yes, Who is in me, and for whose glory. Yes, ready to sled both ways!!
DeleteThank you Leslie! The best thing about our brokenness is in realizing our absolute dependence on God's grace. I often seem to stumble far down the mountain before I will let God lift me to the top. His grace is sufficient to melt all our fears--that's what's propelling me into this new year. Your book release is in His hands and, do I dare say, I've already read it and think it's amazing?!
ReplyDeleteThank you Heather . ... so kind. (I can't describe the pressure that authors feel when a book comes out ..) but I'm thankful for your affirmation. And I am believing for you, too, Heather, that Christ in you, the hope of glory, will be your strength, your hope and your joy this year.
DeleteThank you for that powerful picture and reminder. I am such a slow learner--We climbed the mountain of hard health issues and God taught us much and provided each day. But this new 2014 mountain will also have health issues to overcome and my weakness is to think I have to solve/face them on my own. Patient sighs from above. P.S. My mom loved receiving the salmon and is looking forward to reading your book about your life. So thanks for offering those! Donna
ReplyDeleteDonna---oh, so glad your Mom got the salmon and the book! I hope she is fed richly by both! Very sorry to hear of your health issues. And you know, I KNOW you know, that just as God was with you before, He will be with you again. Please let me know when and how I can join you in prayer for those. A most blessed Christ-in-You year, Donna!
DeleteWonderful analogy and beautiful photos! Christ in us, the Hope of glory! Amen! \(^_^)/
ReplyDeleteRene, Welcome! (I am thinking you are new here?) Thanks so much for reading and being here with us and encouraging me back! Blessings in the New Year!
DeleteThis verse in Colossians is all we need to know in Christ! Thanks so much for encouraging me, Leslie!
ReplyDeleteDiane
You're so welcome, Diane! (I need it every bit as much as everyone else!) Thank you for good words back--which encourage me!
DeleteOh, you made my day. Your words take my breath away, more often than not, and this?
ReplyDeleteBe faithful?
We are made of dirt and water!
.
Be productive?
We have no strength some days save to fall into bed.
Be perfect?
We are made of dust and broken glass.
Be holy?
Our feet are muddied, our hands soiled.
Be like Jesus?
We can hardly be like ourselves some days.
But we forget the best part of ourselves:
Christ in you, the hope of glory!!
This is the best way to start the year.
Thank you.
Thank you, R! Honored and grateful that small words speak, and that you speak back ...
DeleteLeslie, I love this post! What you describe (white knuckle driving) is what I do on my daily exercise run to the pass. Presently I generally do it alone, but I can't wait to bring Stuey or Nora along. I pray that they will enjoy skiing as much as I do.
ReplyDeletePatrick
Patrick--do you do this every day?? Awwww--so jealous!! Yes indeed, it's so much more fun when your kids are with you! I'm hoping with you! (When they first go with you, laugh a lot, be patient, and bring yummy snacks. They'll be hooked!)
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